Dear Simone

Dear Simone,

Today I took my parents to an eye doctor appointment.

I also noticed I have a pimple on the lower crease of my nose that keeps regrowing no matter how many times I rip off the skin. It reminds me of my mom’s mole. She had a few moles taken off in my childhood.

I haven’t gone to the doctors. I should have gotten my head scan by now.

As we sat in the waiting area, my dad asks me if I have naturally black hair or do I dye it? I was a bit insulted because hasn’t our problem my whole life always been because I am a reflection of HIM ! He has black hair. I’m the only one of my sisters with black hair. And I thought of this now, in the bathroom while I was dying MY HAIR BLACK haha Anyways, I do have naturally black hair, I’m just not as fond of the white ones coming in. I’m aging.

I slept wrong a few nights ago, now I have a GIANT knot that starts on my lower left side and traveled to my shoulder. It’s hard to turn my head. I am struggling more with reading up close, I’m constantly trying to find the spot where I can see or just taking off my glasses. There are white hairs where the place don’t shine and I’m craving vegetables all the time. But like flavorful vegetables not just raw and crunchy.

My anxiety has been extremely high and so is my stress.

I talked to Pei and ER. Which reminds me that I need to call him back.

I thought we were done with the case. At least for now. I wanted at least a few weeks without high anxiety. But nope. I got a reminder yesterday. Meeting new people, the feeling of your personal space being invaded from within…and the fight continues.