Dear Simone

Dear Simone,

His parents got married and I have no one to tell !! Their story should be a movie. Soo romantic! The girl gets her happy ending ! I see why you believe in happy endings. There’s nothing wrong with it, it’s just unrealistic. He could have done it right the first time. He had kids on her and the damage continued. For whatever reason, life said this was their path. He said his dad was involved in all his kids’ lives. But there’s no way they were happy with only “check ins” all their lives. I see where he gets it from. There’s no stability in that. I didn’t want that for me. I didn’t want to repeat his parent’s story. I couldn’t trust that he would be different. I always wondered if his dad was just scared or felt shame and felt like it was too much to go back from. I saw the way his parents talked to each other or did favors for each other. It was “all love.” I get him now. He used to tell me that all the time.

I wanted him to stay. Not have to go anywhere. No secret runs or relationships. One steady job, not many hustles. I couldn’t trust it. And it seems like he is repeating that story. Not with me but with her. Or both I guess. That makes me sad. I’m disappointed. And I know I should walk away but I cant. Something wont let me. I don’t want him to do the same thing to her. But I also wonder, if he marries her, will our conversations end? I need him as my friend. Idk if I would be ok without our friendship.

His mom finally got to wear the dress with the only man she probably EVER loved. I believed in their story and I kind of cried when I saw the picture. Tears of joy. It felt right. Maybe it was the deaths in the family that made them realize, life is too short to not pick each other. Or maybe they couldn’t hide it any longer. Whatever the reason or lesson, I…CANNOT…DO…THAT…TO…HER. You chose her, so I love her too.