Dear Simone

Dear Simone,

I had my skin biopsy today. Shit got real when they told me to lay on my side. I was scared and wanted someone to hold my hand. I wanted to cry. But I didn’t. I just went silent. I probably should have said something. Even with the anesthetic, I could feel everything. I laid so still, she didn’t notice. I wanted to punish myself I think. Just a little taste of pain. I ended up craving more. But I was sad. Followed instructions and left it alone.

I wish you were here. You’d know what to do. You would know how to knock sense into me.

Sigh…

BB