Dear Simone

Dear Simone,

Lately, I’ve been feeling the need to have physical pain. Cutting wasn’t enough, so I reorganized Jeh Nay’s room. When that wasn’t enough, I tried to go to the YMCA and swim or stay in the hot tub or sit in the steam room or sauna. I even try to walk more steps than normal at work. When that wasn’t enough, I asked ‘Saint to use deep, firm pressure on my body. That wasn’t enough, so I reorganized the furniture at work…still not enough. I need to get back in the gym. I need to feel the pain of the weights in my muscles.

I’m going to keep saying this until it stops. Life has a funny way of showing me things.

BB